I have been in sort of a daze, thinking about what is next for me. My wife asked me was there anything that I wanted to do before there comes a time when I can’t do much, and I was unsure. Knowing you have cancer and will not be around in a few years is good in many ways but not so good in others. Many projects that I had on my list will not get done or even get started. Things that I was going to buy will not be bought and my list of projects has gotten more focused than ever.
Over the past Covid-19 year, many people have reevaluated their lives and are making changes to live for themselves and family and not for the job. While the jobs provide me with life long income, when the life is shortened the money does not mean as much. There are times when I wish I would have followed my desires to become a farmer and then I realize that my life would have been in a different location and one that I would not have enjoyed.
My wife says that things happen for a reason and I’m thinking she is correct.